A Long Week

It's been a really long and tiring week and I am so glad the weekend is finally here. It started with an ass-kicking day day in the clinic, then about 4:30 my doctor called to tell me we would definitely be doing surgery and he explained all the risks and benefits to me and told me what to expect afterwards. His main concern is the facial nerve. It runs right through the parotid galnd, and consequently, the tumor. He said I would have some facial weakness on my right side for awhile and my ear would be numb. It is supposed to eventually resolve itself after surgery. I'm going in on the 26th to have the parotidectomy. I will stay one night and go home the next day with drains in my neck. They will take the drains out a few days later. He says it will take about a week to recover, but I have taken 2 weeks off work. I can always go back early if I feel up to it. I think my biggest fear is the anesthesia. I've never had any type of surgeries other than c-sections and those were epidurals. Being a nurse, you know too much and tend to think of everything that could go wrong while you are asleep. Maybe it's a control thing.....giving up all control of your body to another person is tough. Anyway, I just want to get this over and done with.