The house is quiet this morning and I'm sitting sipping on my coffee as I peruse through the news. There is never any good news to read anymore. But I won't get up on my soapbox this morning because I just don't feel like it. On Friday I saw Dr Sinard again. He wants to continue the antibiotics and see me Wednesday before he opens the clinic. I guess thats when we'll come up with a game plan for this wound on my neck. I have a hole in it just below my ear (it's gross) that you can actually see into and this is where the salivary fistula is. Saliva is draining from this hole and it's gross! I cover it up at work and when I go out in public, but at home I try to leave it open so maybe it can heal. He says the drainage is a combination of saliva and infection. I hope it heals on it's own. I don't want to go back into surgery and remove the graft......once was enough for me. And I don't like the questions from my patients. I truly appreciate the concern they show for me, but I felt so guilty telling them the tumor was benign. Those people are fighting for their lives every day and I feel like it's a slap in the face to them. I finally started sidestepping their questions and telling them I was just covering a hickey (haha!) with the bandage. They knew better though because they can see part of the stitches, but they didn't push the issue, and I just changed the subject by inquiring about them.
Only a few of my patients (the ones I am closer to) know what's really going on. Now.....on a lighter note......
Our female boxer, Shelby is back in heat. We have wanted a litter for years and this is our last chance. She is almost 4 yrs. old and I have decided that if we don't get some this time, then it's time to have her spayed. She and Brutus, our male, have been trying for along time with no luck. There seems to be alot of "activity" between them when they go outside, so we'll see. If it's meant to be, then it will be.
Well, the sun is shining and it's a beautiful day out there. Time to get off my kiester and get some things done. It's going to be a good day.
Only a few of my patients (the ones I am closer to) know what's really going on. Now.....on a lighter note......
Our female boxer, Shelby is back in heat. We have wanted a litter for years and this is our last chance. She is almost 4 yrs. old and I have decided that if we don't get some this time, then it's time to have her spayed. She and Brutus, our male, have been trying for along time with no luck. There seems to be alot of "activity" between them when they go outside, so we'll see. If it's meant to be, then it will be.
Well, the sun is shining and it's a beautiful day out there. Time to get off my kiester and get some things done. It's going to be a good day.
1 comment:
Cheryl, I am pulling for the best outcome for you and also hope that you don't have to do any procedures you'd rather not do.
Always remember, though, that we cancer patients sometimes welcome the idea of focusing on someone else and, after all, you are definitely worth focusing on.
If we folks didn't have cancer, we'd be there for you. We can still be there for you. And, when I hear someone has a benign dianosis no one is happier than me, because I know the alternative of that equation!
Benign is good, and you are the best.
Remember that! Tanya
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