Peace

I chose the picture above because it represents how I'm feeling. Very serene and peaceful. I am finally at peace with myself and those around me. I am healing well and have no pain. This drain is more of a nusance than anything. I decided yesterday to clean out our bedroom closet. A daunting task, as we have only God knows what piled up in there. The Amvets are having a clothing drive tomorrow, so I started by pulling out all of our old clothes, folding them, and bagging them up to give away. Then I pulled out my mother's old jewelry box. It had been a few years since I had seen what was in there, so I sat on the edge of the bed and opened it. I could not believe what I saw. Pinned to the inside of the lid was several butterfly pins. I guess I had forgotten them over the years. Apparently my mom had a fascination with butterflies too. I gently closed the lid and looked no further. I didn't need to see what else was in there....the butterfies were enough for me. They gave me a peace I haven't felt in quite some time. I have more work to do in our closet today and I am sure I will encounter more treasures such as these.
Robert came to see me day before yesterday. He and Vanessa are happy and that is all I can ask for. I am hoping I will be invited to see my grandson this weekend, but if not, well that's OK too. All things will come in their own time. I don't stress anymore about things I cannot control. It expends too much energy and usually is not worth worrying about anyway. Besides, I have learned that I can find the answers I need by simply taking the time to look inside myself and have peace with myself. I am at peace.